It is 4:30am

I hate high rise.
I am more to horizontality.
Why do i have to do this, i admit i am not skillful in this type of building.
Daaaamn i hate this

Missing

EDIT 8/2/2012 : it has been weeks but still no sign of them.. ;____;. I hope somebody took them and take care of them... i don't ever wanna think the worst case scenario.

Upon the happiness we achieved last weekend, we just found out that 2 of our cats are gone missing. My dad took them for a walk for the 1st time last weekend at Pandan Indah Park and accidently lost them. It started to rain so my dad had to went back home.. I don't know but it makes me furious and disappointed. Why didnt u just take them for a walk at the park near our house? I heard that abah wanted to let them loose i get it, even mama approves of the idea, but why Mek? Nala has always been an escape artist, independent and she knows the outside world quite well. But Mek is a 100% house cat. She is a Queen. She sleeps on a huge cushion under the air-cond. She doesn't like people to cuddle her and touched her belly. Even when the door is open, unlike her sisters Ah Tek & Achik that will immediately walk towards the gate but not Mek. She would just laying there in front of the door, doesn't even trying to make a step. This is not fair for her. It should be done step by step, not gone missing like this, at the park which is not even in our neighbourhood. I have gone searching for them for hours at the park and at the area surrounding it but i just couldnt find them..

I am so sad and i feel so sorry for her... T^T . The thought of her coming back is clearly impossible since she never went outside. If anyone founds her and wanted to take care of her, be my guest. But if u don't want to please help me and if u have seen her please inform me...

I am so sorry Mek.. u must have been suffering right now.. where did u sleep last night? What did u eat? Are u with Nala right now? Oh God please let them be safe... It's breaking my heart to see Achik and Ah Teh now. They keep sticking to each other. Usually they are more to lone ranger, Achik likes to hang around on the sofa in the living room while Ah Teh in my parents bedroom. But now they are always together, eat together, now sleeping together, as if.. they know that their sister is missing and they don't want to let either one of them out of their sight. It breaks my heart... T^T

Booo

Siannya blogni, tuan dia punyala pemalas nak update

Tensi

I love having a laugh with my friends and i treasured my friends very much

But when u started to annoy me, i just can't take u seriously
Every little thing that u did, although a teeny-weeny mistake, makes me feel so annoyed
Sometimes i wondered which is the real u and when is the time that u are serious
Since u always joke around making a poker face

I am not a fierce lady, I am just strict and sensitive
Every joke has a limit, every one has different sensitivity level
and u, please do not be so insensitive

Not good at all

I just found out... Although it is not recently happened.. but damn.

It is very immature of u to talk something about our or my past in a public post. I just being emo myself, i didnt post about your weaknesses and bad remarks to let the public be the judge and criticized. As a result, you are making people looking down on me.

U said u have changed, but u never at all. U still act abruptly without thinking the consequences.

Random 15

Why are u doing that?
When the first time u did it, i thought maybe ur just being insensitive, as always
But then it happens again.. I began to wonder whether u were really honest about it or not?

Is that a part of your tactic?
Sorry, its a total failure, makes me feeling annoyed.

Why u are like that?

OK that is a blow.. why did u do that?
Are u embarrassed of talking to me?
U really do got 2 face.

Rainy days

As these legs walked
The rain follows
Looking up towards the dark sky
Clenched teeth with head held high
Looking forward again
to the path that laid up-front
With clouded heart but clear mind
And marched forward

Random 13 *added random pictures

with my smallest cousin from Kelantan

Baby wanna be pampered

I don't know what to post anymore... Sorry my blog for abandoning u.
Well lots of things happened last weeks.
My relatives came by during the school holiday
But i didnt join them much since im working so i went back and forth to their hotel after my office hour
I also got lots of projects and i have certain problems in my life too
So in conclusion, last week was VERY TIRING and DEPRESSING

I can't fulfil your request, kinda hard for me to face u now. I'm finally ready and accepting this, so plz give me time... I'm giving u the 'space' that u want too

Ok back to work
p/s: Fatin Shaza, i will wait for you, lets go on a vacation this October!

Killing a newly-bloomed flower

I knew from the very beginning that it would turn out to be this way
But how silly i was for hopping
I know u didn't mean it that way, but for me, the conclusion is 'Actually i don't want to go'

"If i knew from the very beginning that it would turn out like that, i wouldn't have come"

I think u just killed me.

Tuesday Post

- Went to Alor Gajah, Melaka hantar my cousin who's studying at IKBN

- About 10 minutes after we had dropped him off, Matrix was loaded with white smoke. My mum, who was behind the wheel that time, frantically stoped the car, pulled the key and jump out of the car leaving me screaming at her cuz she leaves the air-cond running with a screeching sound and more white smokes coming out of it. After some discussions with my older cousin and my dad (via hp) and a few checkups, it was the air- cond that has the problem so we had to drove back all the way to KL with hot-scorching-air and no air- cond~~

**But the funny part was.. the discussions with my dad. Well i blamed him solely for this unfortunate event cuz b4 we head off to Melaka, i insisted that we used Myvi instead of Matrix, cuz that old car was on mischief these past few weeks and my dad said "its ok la~ if x gerak lagila rosak, biar die gerak2 siket~". so my dad xleh nak 'marah2' ktorg bile benda ni berlaku since it was his 'order' to use Matrix instead of Myvi

My dad tanye macam2 gile till my mum go nuts and i said to my dad (while my mum holding the hp to her ear), "Pakaila GPRS 3G hp baru abah tu, kol sini biar mama suluh camera dlm enjin". Then tbe2 my mum hung up her hp and she LOLed hard. My dad said "Tunggu situ abah dtg". Well it took us about 2 hours to get to Melaka so my mum said "Hah? brape lame abah nk smpi???" My dad dgn selamba jawab "U nak suro abah terbang ke?? kuar dr umah pun belum lagi ni dah nak suroh abah berlepas, tunggu la" ...... XD. Well after that he didnt flew to Alor Gajah since the car boleh bergerak~ Missed the chance to see him wearing a red cape~ X)

- Stop by my cousin's house at Port Dickson for lunch and we reached home by 7 dgn badan melekit-lekit.. eerrghhh~!

i want to see KBS Gayo Daejun!!!

aaah!! yesterday it was aired on SBS, since we dont have that channel so we couldnt see. But tonight i mean now, is KBS Gayo Daejun (music awards) and we still couldnt see it cuz KBS channel make way for the movie Iris.. aarghH!! i want to see the music showww~!!!!!! X(((

sob sob thank you allKPOP for always doing a good job to keep people like me, who couldnt get the privilege watching these shows, always on the update of the music world.. huhuhu but still... T^T *gigit tissue

Is it me or you?

insensitive, so-carefree, couldnt-care-less attitude
that is you

All this while
it's me the one who keeps on begging
blaming me that im not enough for you
i was a boredom for you

and i accept ur blames
lowering my pride to be with you
since i trusted the bond
that was laid upon us

but when i looked back
is it me or you who is not being serious?
heh look who's talking now?
is it me or you that make others look like a fool in public eyes?

u can only see yourself alone facing the jury
u didnt even realize that i was in the same spot
u only see others mistakes
but not realizing yours

My baby is sick =((

The day before yesterday, we noticed that Simba keeps on going to his litter box n he drank lost of water. He keeps on mewing too and being grumpy so we took him to the clinic. The doc said he's likely to have batu karang in his pundi kencing. When we caressed the area where his pundi kencing situated, we can felt that it's hard.

Yesterday morning, Simba undergo a surgery. The doc placed a tube at his bottom area so that he can easily pea but it's going to be messy cuz he cannot pancut and sit properly. Red thingy also running out from the tube, my dad said that's not his blood, that's the thing that makes him unable to pee... but it looks painful.. It takes about a week for him to recover. We had to place a cone at his head so that he cant pulled the tube away...

Now he's still recovering, but his face is like so depress. My lil sis couldnt stop crying after my dad brought him home after the surgery. When he look at us, it's as if he was crying and asking for our help. We already did what we could do baby, so be strong...

Black mole on white bread

Sometimes i feel like a loser trying to re-connect with my friends
because they never replied to me back
and we're quite close back then

Over-out-of-nowhere-Sensitive People

Grrr i hate those bunch of idiots celaka!! they're so hyped up even just a simple question or a piece of mind, that doesnt even have a pinch of sarcasm, they will get so EMOOO and started blasting and blasting out of nowhere calling people DUMBASS, LOSER, RETARD, IDIOT PIG.

the hell????

even when u have different opinions they will get so like hyper and tembak u bertubi2. stupid-uncivilized people. i think they are soooooo into the net talking to a DAMN BOX that they doesnt know how to talk to a NORMAL HUMAN thus doesnt even know how to differentiate between an INSULT or an OPINION.



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*wail

yesterday

mama,"kakak dah tembamla"

me,"....!!!!!!!!!!!"


T_T

Hmmm

every year is the same
this year is exactly like last year
have to submit works during that time
darn... no fun at all
no memories
just plain lame

at least, thank you mama... =)

Pushing 'nana's'

yesterday evening, nana & i decided to go for a jog at the nearby park, but her car suddenly xleh hidup. rupe2nye she forgot to switch off her fog lights last night. Luckily adam, azim n red lives nearby. huhuhhu. and i was there to capture the moments~

muke gelisah pemilik kete n the 'mechanics'

1 minute ago

im at my rented house in shah alam.. n about 1 minute ago, my house shakes!!!! 0_o

i was playing games at my laptop when suddenly the table was 'shaking' left and right. my head felt dizzy. i thought maybe i tap the keyboard hard?? then suddenly my housemates 'kecoh' tbe2

"wey aku dok atas katil aku tbe2 je katil aku bergegar"

"(ziela) air dlm cawan i tbe2 mcmc berkocak pastu i pening"

satu rumah rase! i tot im alone and it was just perasan lebey je. damn that was scary..



**** The cause is from south sumatera, with the magnitude of 7.6
the link: http://earthquake.usgs.gov/eqcenter/recenteqsww/Quakes/us2009mebz.html